I mean, it was ok. I was alright
for a while. But as soon as there was a
slight downhill, I had to coast down (no fast descents for this girl yet, every bump was terrifying enough), which means I was way behind—and I just
didn’t have it in me to catch up. Plus,
my shoulders and neck started aching by the end and while it wasn’t exactly a
lot of pain, it was enough that I was overall uncomfortable and not willing to
push anything at all. Which is fine, I know, just exceedingly frustrating to get dropped wayyyy off the back, regardless of the circumstances.
Plus, now my back hurts more today.
I need a massage. But I need more
skin on my back, first. It’s way too raw
and delicate right now. Whine, whine, whine.
On top of that, I just looked at the calendar—nationals is in 17
days. That’s really soon. I still can’t get in the pool (much less a
wetsuit and lake), and I desperately need all the swim practice I can get. So not only am I missing out on 2 weeks worth
of improvement (assuming I can swim again next week), but I am positive I’m
going backwards, and will just have to see how terribly slow I am once I can
start.
Running and biking is also terribly slow, although I am really hoping
that as soon as my back stops hurting, I can bounce back. But then the question is—when will my back be
better? I am quickly running out of
time. It's not like I will miraculously go back to how I was, overnight.
I never thought I would do particularly well in Milwaukee,
but I would have liked to actually race to the best of my ability and feel
strong...not to the best of my ability in a painful, just-starting-to-move-again
state. How worth it is it to spend all the
time and money to go, if it’ll suck?
Ugh.
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